Apparently this is how I roll.
Namely staying offline for months. Logging in during a moment of inspiration. Throwing photos at my galleria and gallivanting off again.
Thus this should seem no surprise.
Here I am again.
To throw.
Beyond that. College starts in a few weeks. I have 144 photos which are waiting to be processed and now that I look at them most of them seem quite outdated and not worthy of my stamp of approval.
I also am attempting to redecorate my room. Fix my car. Control my psyche and enjoy my summer.
And thats just the next two months.

Well, I haven't been on in a stupid amount of time.
That shall most probably change. Namely because I just recently bought a black 13" MacBook. Yes those bloody mac commercials and my sisters near religious use of her own to do everything artistic has led me to buy one.
And now I can sit any where in my house, edit photos, print photos, do pretty much everything without having to sit in an uncomfortable chair in a cold basement.
Sweet brilliance that is the influence of money.
Mind you it did cost me roughly one months pay, but what ever.
Beyond that, I'm hoping to finally get through all my unsorted photos pretty soon.
And I got some Marie Laforet out of the library, which means lots of French pop, straight outta Paris baby!

My sister told me to I had to do this. And yes, I was actually bored enough to do it.

How does the world see me?:
Natural Blues - Moby
Off to a great start.

Will I have a happy life?:
A-Tisket A-Tasket - Ella Fitzgerald
How specific of you Ella, my life is like you dropping a letter and a girl stealing it?

What do people really think of me?:
Memory (acoustic) - Sugarcult
So people think I'm dead. Nice.

Do people secretly lust after me?:
All Alone - Gorillaz
...

How can I make myself happy?:
Give Me Novacaine - Green Day
Amen brother.

What should I do with my life?:
White Moon - White Stripes
So I should be hopped on pain meds and run round all night. Boo yah baby.

Will I ever have children?:
California Dreaming - Mama's and the Papa's
Thats not a good sign, I think.

What is some good advice for me?:
Cold Hungry Blues - Po' Girl
You're saying I should become obese? Thats just plain not nice Shuffle.

What do I think my current theme song is?:
Black Sheep Boy - Okkervil River
Yea, I'd say thats pretty close.

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
I Bet You Look Good On The Dance Floor - Arctic Monkeys
Well, it is true, I do look good on the dance floor.

What song will play at my funeral?:
I Still Miss Someone - Johnny Cash
Well it's depressing at least.

What type of men/women do you like?:
Everybody Knows - Rufus Wainwright
So I'm a man whore who likes everyone? I don't know how I feel about that.

What is my day going to be like?:
Lets Call The Whole Thing Off - Ella Fitzgerald & Louie Armstrong
Wow, not leaving bed tomorrow.

Why am I here?:
Gold Digger - Kanye West
Oh I see, to lose all my money to strange women, yes of course.

What will people remember me for?:
Like A Song Bird That Has Fallen - Reeltime Travelers
Well isn't that cute.

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?:
Cecelia - Simon & Garfunkle
Could be worse.

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?:
The Spoken Wheel - Flogging Molly
...I'm going to die...

What will this year be all about?:
Walk Idiot Walk - The Hives
Is that a reference to me, or the rest of the population?

Its odd, life has finally caught up to me. By that I mean, I've been so concerned at finishing school and now that I have, now that I'm working full time and driving and doing all these mature things, I realize, they aren't that great. Sure there are perks, like driving through the country side any time I like and going to parties until I'm too tired to drive and falling asleep on a couch at a friends house. But its odd, no matter how hard I try to hold on to my youth the more it slips through my hands.

Its so sad but true, this life, this expanse of time in which we grace this planet with our dicisions and regrets is completely fleeting. Every moment we exsist is simply that, a moment. I'm not about to start quoting a Lexus commercial at you, but it's odd what an effect age has on you. I remember when I was young sitting in a box that came with our huge television for 2 hours imagining it was a secret base hidden in a tree in the wilds of some tropical forest, I was 8. How did ten years change me so much?

I used to consider it a good day if I didn't have to take a nap, now I'm trying to juggle a social life with work, school and love, and its rediculous. Whats more rediculous is the thought of doing what I'm doing now for the rest of my life. As it stands currently I don't feel like I belong here any more, like a guest who's over stayed his welcome. I don't mean my parents are kicking me out (my mother is insisting I stay at home), I mean I have this insatiable need to leave. To pack a bag, get in my car and drive. If I end up in Nova Scotia, so be it. If I stop in three provinces along the way, thats fine. It doesn't matter where I go, sitting still is becoming a desease aided by televisions and useless internet sites *points finger at mycatlookslikehitler.com*.

Recently my sister asked why I'm never home, I'm either working, doing evening classes on journalism or out, for an undefined amount of time driving. And the answer is I can't stand staying home. Before I got a car I was limited by my own ability to walk, but now, I am no longer limited so there is no point in not taking advantage of it. I'm never home because I've been home my entire life. Where as the world, well the world I've barely been able to see.

But why am I wasting time typing this out to no one. I have places to be and people to see.

Righto,
So this past few days/ Labour Day weekend have been rather disturbingly reflective. Summer 06 has most certainly been a transistion point, and I doubt its done transistioning. There has been pain, excitment, angst, friends, spooning (in that order), photography, the realization that nothing will ever be the same.
The worst part about it is that Time has a sneaky way of just jumping you, when you least expect it. Even though you wake up every morning in the same bed, and even though every day seems to take a long time, it doesn't in the grand scheme of things. I'm not going to start saying moronic clichés like "Smile, since every minute spent frowning is 60 seconds of happiness you'll never get back" since to be honest, frowning is damn fun sometimes. And besides, if you run around smiling, people just begin to wonder either A.) What assylum you escaped from or B.) What combonation of Pot and LSD you took.
Maybe I'm just cynical... Scratch that I am.
Point in fact, life is short, you don't need a stupid saying to tell you that.
The best thing you can do is just live in the moment, sure plan moments for later in life, but enjoy the moments you have, since as soon as that person moves away, or that Sun sets, that's it, its gone.
I'm rambling, growing up is annoying.

---Cheers, Andy---

P.S. My computer finally stopped being so asinine, so new pictures, here we come.